I have never...

I have never.
I have been more alone than this.
But still...
I wish for sleep that's never ending.
I wish for a coma nap to never wake from.
I wish for the pulsating pain inside my brain to explode...
Destroy me... let my face match my mind... match my soul

And you left... but not forever?
Yes. Whatever you say dear... you were gone before I found you.
No more breathing life back into corpses.
I have never felt alone like this... it's different.
I feel free. No pressure.

I can finally fade.
No more need for me to save you.
And no need to save myself.