i push and i push and i push and i push
...just waiting for the pull
i'll never pull at you... i'll just pull you near
until i push and push and push you away, again
rewind - repeat - rewind - repeat
it's not a game despite what this looks like.
despite what you see.
i don't want to make you hate me or piss you off.
i want your footing to remain steady, on solid ground... but discomfort makes me shift
i don't like the push i have inside myself...
I don't know what my problem is
i don't know why these things make me so nervous
but i am nervous
and so i push